Day 031 [ 00d, 17h, 32m; 031 consecutive days ]

So, here it is.  Day 31!  This marks the last day of the first month.  I feel a bit of relief, its been a rough week to keep up with this.  When you've only for three cylinders but try to run on four after being sick its hard to sit down and spend twenty minutes and focus.  When in truth all you really want to do is sleep.  I feel pretty accomplished already by not skipping any sittings even though I was sick, and I get to round out the first month.  

I'm one twelfth of the way and have 334 days left to go.  When I started this, I didn't really think that I'd make it this far without missing.  I think the biggest contributor to my success is making sure I'm getting a decent amount of sleep.  It's to meditate when you're really tired, but its even harder sit down to even start when you're tired.  I think the second contributor to making it happen, is just this, keeping track.  Well, here's to the next month.  Should be a piece, it's only twenty-nine days.

Day 030 [ 00d, 17h, 12m; 030 consecutive days ]

Sat for a very short bit on the train and then Dharma Punx tonight.  Next week is my talk.  It's been a while since I've done one, I'm a bit nervous.

Day 029 [ 00d, 16h, 42m; 029 consecutive days ]

I've continued sitting despite being sick.  Tonight I definitely felt my body was a lot healthier and it was much easier to sit.  Despite lots of "monkey mind" but still had a fair amount of concentration.

Day 027 [ 00d, 16h, 02m; 027 consecutive days ]

Still sick again.  It was hard to focus.  I decided to try metta (lovingkindness) practice, to give me a little more to focus on, other than how weird my body feels when I'm sick.  It gives quite a bit of confidence for the coming year that I can sit when I'm sick.  It was just mostly getting past the mental block that I wouldn't be able to.  The sitting with it is no worse than just being sick, and I can't change that now.

Day 026 [ 00d, 15h, 42m; 026 consecutive days ]

Being that I've been sick since yesterday morning and feeling quite awful, I'm pretty proud that I still sat today.  I was tempted to just say, oh I'm sick, I don't need to sit.  But I decided I didn't want to skip.  I know how hard it is to pick back up after you lose your momentum.  And I really didn't want to break my running streak.  I feel like the first month is almost done, and I'm so close.

I clearly didn't have a very focused sitting, but I stuck with it.  It gave me an opportunity to take a look at my aversion to how my body is feeling.  Your body feels very rubbery and distorted when you're achey.

Here's hoping that tomorrow I'll feel better.

Day 025 [ 00d, 15h, 12m; 025 consecutive days ]

Sat this morning for half an hour because I slept in an hour this morning.

Day 024 [ 00d, 14h, 42m; 024 consecutive days ]

Last night was the usually sitting group and this morning mindfulness of the body.  I was very distracted and wandered off quite frequently.  I think its due to sleepiness. Getting up at five the last few days has been easy enough, just been tough getting to sleep when I should.

Day 023 [ 00d, 13h, 32m; 023 consecutive days ]

Sat for only half an hour due to roommate living logistics with showering and whatnot.  Dharma Punx tonight.

Day 022 [ 00d, 13h, 2m; 022 consecutive days ] : part II

I sat again after work for about twenty minutes.  Thats about an hour and ten or an hour and fifteen minutes a day for the last couple of days.  

I feel invigorated for the time being.  During all my free time, when I'm not working or with someone, all my thoughts seem to be turned towards my practice.  I've felt pretty productive at work the last couple of days and finally feel like I've gotten to a place where I'm challenged with my meditation.  Up until now the challenge was just making myself sit, not the sitting itself.

Day 022 [ 00d, 12h, 42m; 022 consecutive days ]

Continued with the mindfulness of the body meditation.

Day 021 [ 00d, 11h, 48m; 021 consecutive days ] Part 2

I sat again tonight for a little over fifty minutes.  I did mindfulness of the body instead of mindfulness of the breath I've been doing mostly up until now.  It's what I was taught while on retreat.  This is probably going to become my main focus for the time being.  I wanted to work up to because the way I prefer to do it is fairly slow.  That way it requires quite a bit of concentration and mindfulness.  I was worried that I'd notice very little sensation, other than where there were places of gross contact or pain.  The first few times I did this I could barely notice anything at all, other than the least subtle sensations.  Its a bit of a relief that the previous work didn't completely dissapate.  I still have trouble distinguishing toes and fingers from the entire bunch.

Day 021 [ 00d, 10, 57m; 021 consecutive days ]

Supposedly if you do something for twenty-one days in a row, it becomes habit.  I don't think I'm there yet, even though I've put in the time.  I tried to sit this morning for forty-two minutes, thirty minutes is all I managed.  Last night I sat for twenty.  Although I did well on Saturday with sitting first thing, yesterday I put it off until the end.  Of course this meant I only did the minimum.  I'm looking forward to rounding out the rest of the first month.

Day 019 [ 00d, 10h, 07m; 019 consecutive days ]

Nothing to report, got up early to avoid the difficulty I had last week end by meditating before bed.  Now Saturday is done with.  I sat for forty minutes, which only felt like twenty.  I think in the future, getting up early on the weekend might allow me to take a longer sitting, since I usually don't need to rush.

Day 018 [ 00d, 09h, 27m; 018 consecutive days ]

I sat for  only about twenty-three minutes this morning.  Getting up at six doesn't give me quite enough time to sit for thirty minutes plus without rushing.  I should start getting up earlier.

Day 017 [ 00d, 09h, 04m; 017 consecutive days ]

I was a little lazy yesterday, I only sat during Dharma Punx.  Tonight I sat for thirty-six minutes though.  Very turbulent at first, I settled down after a while and felt relatively focused.

I started looking at what retreat I want to do this summer.  There's one in Los Altos that I want to do with a meditation instructor I think very highly of.  I'm sending off my application materials tomorrow.

Day 015 [ 00d, 08h, 08m; 015 consecutive days ]

Sat for just twenty minutes tonight again. I was busy geting wrapped
up in playing with new toys.

Day 014 [ 00d, 07h, 48m; 014 consecutive days ]

The end of week two.  I forgot to post to the journal since I sat late last night, so my running streak is still running strong.  I only sat for about twenty minutes though last night.  Tonight, I sat for thirty-one minutes.

Day 012 [ 00d, 06h, 57m; 012 consecutive days]

I sat for half an hour right before bed.  I had the opportunity to sit in the morning and didn't take it.  Late on Saturday night is not exactly when I wanted to be sitting.  Hey, but at least I didn't fall off the wagon.

Day 011 [ 00d, 06h, 27m; 011 consecutive days ]

Sat after waking up, slept in a few minutes giving myself just barely enough time.

Day 010 [ 00d, 05h, 59m : 010 consecutive days ]

Wasted time again in the morning and didn't sit.  So i ended up sitting when I got home.

Day 009 [ 00d, 05h, 24m; 009 consecutive days ] : achoo!

Got up this morning and sat for about twenty-seven minutes.  I was thinking about a sneeze for about a minute before I actually sneezed.  I don't know whether my fixation on sneezing caused the sneeze, or something tipped me off that I was going to sneeze before or I consciously knew I was going to sneeze, or it was just a coincidence.  Its pretty common for me to sneeze during a morning sitting.  But it's still a very interesting sensation.  It builds into a very intense sensation just inside my nose, then it explodes and there's a shower of tingling sensation that goes very quickly from the top of my head and down over my entire body, as if someone were pouring tickling water on top of my head and it splashes down.

Day 008 [ 00d, 04h, 57m ; 008 consecutive days ]

Going to the Won temple was very nice.  It was a very large group of people compared to Dharma Punx.   Even though it was moral formal, it did end in a rendition of "Moon River."  Everyone I met was very warm and welcoming.  I felt very comfortable.  It started off with some chanting, then some sitting meditation, dharma talk, a little more meditation and then the serenade.

Day 008 [ 00h, 04h, 22m; 008 consecutive days ]

Woke up in time to sit this morning, but dilly-dallied all morning, so I didn't sit until I got on the train.  I stayed up pretty late last night and its pretty clear that makes it harder to stay focused enough to sit down and not waste my time in the morning.

I'll be going to the Won Buddhist temple tonight to sit with my friend Lucas.  I've never been to a proper temple before, so I'm looking forward to it.

Day 007 [ 00d, 03h, 45m; 007 consecutive days ]

Well, I've just rounded out my first week of consistent sitting meditation.  I'm up to 26 minute sitting.  It's really been much easier to sit without getting antsy about when to get up.  I think that must have happened after my retreat.  Sitting ten hours in a day for ten days breaks you in I guess.  It's like a comfortable pair of shoes you can walk two blocks or two miles in.  

I'm pretty surprised that I've been able to sit everyday without missing one or flaking out.  I'll just keep focusing on "one day at a time."

Day 006 [ 00d, 03h, 19m; 006 consecutive days ]

Tonight I sat for only twenty minutes and after I had eaten a very full meal.  I didn't sit in the morning because I'd had a late night last night and felt pretty tired this morning.  I had the opportunity to sit this afternoon, but was feeling too lazy and tired.  So it was even more of a struggle to make myself sit after a very full meal and already feeling like I wanted to be in bed around eight.  Once I started I was fine though, just a little trouble getting my ass on the cushion.

Day 005 [ 00d, 02h, 59m; 005 consecutive day ] : The Weekend

I sat for 25 minutes this morning when I got up.

Day 004 [ 00d, 02h, 34m; 004 consecutive day ] : Easier

Today was much easier to get up and get going, despite a little laziness.  My concentration was decent.  Had the burning throat again, but not as intense.

Day 003 [ 00d, 02h, 10m; 003 consecutive day ] : Part 2

I couldn't sleep tonight, so I decided to try and sit before bed.  I sat for twenty-two minutes.  Concentration was lacking and I had the really intense warmth in my throat that I periodically have while sitting.  About half way through the sitting it cleared.  What an odd place to hold tension.

Day 003 [ 00d, 01h, 47m ; 003 consecutive days ] : Sleepy

I sat on the train this morning, didn't get up early like I intended, mostly because I was up playing with creating the blog and Facebook.

I plan on sitting again after work, train sitting doesn't count completely.

Day 002 [ 00d , 01h, 17m ; 002 consecutive day ] : Dharma Punx

Day 002 [ 00d , 01h, 17m ; 002 consecutive day ]

32 minutes on the train this morning.

25 minutes at Dharma Punx

Day 001 [ 00d , 00h, 20m ; 001 consecutive day ] : The Year is Oh-Eight!

The year is oh-eight! Hail seitan chicken!

Today starts my new years resolution of daily practice of meditation.  

I meditated for 20 minutes before bed.  This is the first consecutive day.

I've been meditating for about three years on a very regular basis and I am taking the opportunity of the new year as way to crank up my practice.  I usually shy away from making resolutions.  I think they tend to cause people to overextend themselves for a very short amount of time and lead to self-improvement burn-out.  

I'm taking exception this year because I feel like the benefits I've reaped from having a very regular practice can only be enhanced by a stronger determination to make it part of my daily routine.  Plus I'm close enough as it is.  I sit about five days a week, even if it's only for my morning ride on the train.  

I have a year to elaborate, so I'll get down to the nitty-gritty.  Here are the rules:

1.  I must sit at minimum twenty minutes every day, no exceptions!

2.  I will sleep twenty minutes less if necessary.

3.  I will make a concerted effort to gradually work up to an hour long sitting.(Adding one minute per day)

4.  If possible and I have the inclination, I will work on two sittings per day (one long, one short)

5.  There is really no good excuse for not sitting for a minimum of twenty minutes.

6.  If I miss a day, I will make my best effort to return to my schedule as quickly as possible.

7.  If I miss a day or more, I will not berate myself; and will make my best effort to keep disappointment from disrupting my practice further.

8.  I will do my best to track my efforts. (if I don't post, it doesn't mean I've fallen off the wagon)

9.  I will do my best to keep myself honest about my efforts.  If I miss a day, or don't put in the minimum amount, I will be upfront about the results.

10.  The most important part is the effort.  The total number of hours sitting in meditation or the number of consecutive days is not as important as the sustained, long term effort I'm committing to. 

Wish me luck!